Today I had a brunch (we are talking about 3pm) with the Tso couple from my church. We are baptists.
I really came out of the closet – about the fact that I don’t believe in the “one saved, always saved” and the “Rapture is for every believer” theories, and the fact that I think most of what our church teaches and doesn’t teaches have so far failed to equip me to face most of my challenges in life.
Should you tell these things to your brothers and sisters? While I don’t usually tell the church folks what I really believe to avoid a fight, I think at the end of the day you should let your brothers and sisters know.
The aforementioned theories really did major disservices to sincere Christians, insincere Christians, and anything in between, because the theories undermine the importance to watch out for what is to come – the future judgments: the Tribulation and even Hell.
I also shared with them a tiny bit about the trials I had been through. It was quite hard to have to explain to someone who has always been doing well in a typical job why you have been incomeless and unemployed for 3 years.
Generational curses and verbal curses were the major factors that break my destiny.
Before I went for lunch with them, I’d spend an hour praying to God. It was saddening to pray about my past and ask God what I should say if the couple ask about my “job hunt”. I was wandering in the desert financially.
How do I explain this to them?
I had lost so much honor and opportunities in the past already. And here I have to explain to other about it and make myself go through the entire memory bank again!
So I started off by telling them how I have this conviction to seek God’s perfect will for my life in everything, including job search, and that God hasn’t really instructed me where I should go in terms of job finding. (Proverbs 3:5-6) (And I do have sent out applications, even to Wal Mart, but all doors closed. I was once hired for a week and was said to be over qualified. The owner and I had a lot in common, even went to the same church, but it didn’t last over a week)
Basically, when I worked, I was always on the verge of getting fired. If there were options, I often ended up choosing the slow and crooked path. When there were opportunities, they often slipped through my hands in the last second. Blessing evaded me most of the time.
I doubled and tripled my will. I prayed. I read. I sought help. Every door closed. I joined a Network Marketing company to keep myself positive, since NM usually have those pumping-you-up prep talks and positive thinking rules, but even that turned sour. Positive thinking without Truth and God is futile.
I couldn’t explain my suicidal thoughts. I couldn’t stop my depression. I had short attention span. Every dream I cherished ended up broken. Almost every nightmare that I dreaded get fulfilled. (But I think God really kept some of the worst ones from happening, such as I didn’t really commit suicide, and I didn’t go blind, even though my eyesight haven’t got healed yet)
As a result, I also had to spend a lot of time to come to term with my memory and try to know the whys. But the down side of that was, the more time you had, the more your brain will find things to occupy those time. The more time you give your brain, the more it thinks.
Okay, back to the topic.
God told me the major reason of all these was because of curses that still operated in my life, so I was able to break them after learning these things. Demons feed upon curses and they really go after anyone who is under curse(s).
Also, there was my own problem – my own lack of faith? I thought I had faith, but I had failed to speak the word of faith often! As Christians, we should speak the word of God with faith, not verbalize the negatives of the situation nor complains. Over the year, my negative confessions often get fulfilled. Speaking of self-fulfilling prophecies. See my view on What Is Faith
After I learned about these things, I was really shocked, but now I have to explain them to my Baptist fellows. Baptist Churches don’t teach these things.
I have been told to keep quiet about my new findings because they can cause such a big impact to others. Well, millions of churchgoers could be going to hell without knowing it. We have millions of people in the churches today, but not all of them are getting saved in the end. I know it for a fact. They must at least be given a fair treatment by telling them the truth.
False security will only drastically increase one’s chance of falling into sins and refusing to repent:
Hebrews 3:12-13
12See to it, brothers, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God. 13But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin’s deceitfulness.
Today was such a battle for me, emotionally, spiritually, and mentally. And people kept asking me about my “job hunt”…
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