I didn’t care. I was too emotionally spent to care. I was bombarded by childhood memories, the pains, regrets, lost, and everything bad that came to my mind during my study. I was so spent after a few hours.

I didn’t even realize how many thoughts had passed through my mind prior to my fall for private anime. It went on and on. The fear of being incomeless and the fear of uncertainty in the future and all that also presented.

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Loving thoughts are not abusive. They believe in the best, are hopeful, and they believe.

One abusive thought, and it will lead to chaos of the mind and heart. It unbalances the emotions and focus.

To have pure focus, loving thoughts are important.

When I study, I found out a lot of abusive thoughts pattern. It leads to waste time. When I become willing to love myself, I start to become more productive and energetic.

Love gives me more energy. It protects me from mood swings, and preserve energy.

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I have always been quite content with being whom I am. The fact that I have never dated around makes me feel more positive, because I thanked God for keeping me pure.

I live in Canada as a Chinese Canadian, but I never had major identity crises. I was upset before for not speaking perfect English because a girl I admired was a Canadian Asian who spoke perfect English, but overall I was okay with being myself.

This time, the episode with the neighborhood girl and the police caused me to feel self-conscious about my age and ethnicity. Age bothers me much more than me being Chinese. I know Asian guy is quite popular too, but the North American (U.S.  and Canadian) seems to be very resistant to a bigger age difference. There are quite a few negative labels. I didn’t care much before, because I looked young for my age, but this time I cared.

Then New Year Eve came. I was still quite affected by the issue, and visited forums and websites with asian-and-white interracial dating themes to look for some hopes. I hoped I was still in the age range that could be accepted by attractive, young white women. I never had an interest in a white woman before until recently. I found that they could be sweet and traditional too, and mixed children looked really cute, so I kind of picture what it was like to have “white” kids after I marry.

By the way, I was taking a walk in the mall and ran into my friends, a white-husband-Chinese-wife couple, whom I knew in University before they got married. Maybe God was trying to tell me something? A comfort of some sort?

But the issue I am facing here is age, so…

Tonight I drove around after the hotpot. I also had replied to some craiglist ads from white ladies who are looking for men to date in NYE. I wrote I wasn’t going to date them, but just wanted to talk. I wanted to know what they thought about my age and appearance. It was probably a dangerous move. There were many possibilities. An obvious possibility is sexual temptation. A lot of the women were looking for white guys and stated it in the ads. Some younger women were looking for guys who were their ages, so it only made me more uncomfortable, knowing that I was outside of their age range.

I missed my youth.

As I drove around, I kept quoting God’s word. Then I felt that my peace and strength were coming back. I felt like the usual me again. I was able to envision what my ministry was heading, that the New Testament Churches are going to be built, and God will attract a lot of people from different background, ages, and race through me and my team as we build the Lord’s churches. It was encouraging.

I really shouldn’t be self-conscious about my age and enthicity. As I age, I will age gracefully and slowly, because I know that I am spiritual and I live on the supernatural plane. God will renew my youth and I will defy aging. If I have faith, it will keep being that way. If I doubt, I will indeed get old faster.

My future wife is still out there waiting. I have been praying for her since age 10. I don’t think my future disciples will find me repulsive because I am older. I believe that as I mature I will be like old wine, which taste better. The older I get the more glory! So what if my future partner meet cross my path as a teenage girl?

I did’t bend on getting a young girl. It just happened to be a young, white lady that I became interested in.

This NYE was quite a learning experience. God taught me how it feel to be lonely on NYE. There are many lonely people who are suffering. A NYE is a good time to reach out to them and give them the love they need. It is the time to heal the sick, to give to the poor, to hug the lonely, and other godly things.

My Past Depression

Depression used to be my torturer.

This event reminded me of my old depression. In fact, the familiar voice of depression was trying to talk in my head again. The word of God dissipated its voice this time, again. It was so effective, just like it has always been.

Depression tried to make me feel self-pity and regret. It tried to tell me how many attractive girls I have failed to notice, and opportunties they gave me that I missed. It was trying to tell me that my youth has been passing me by and I would never get it back again.

I remembered how my depression said things that upset me in 2002 when the girl I had admired for so long finally met a new boyfriend. Since then depression had been following me, using different events and episode to keep me depressed. The cycles reinforced themselves. The more I depressed, the more I was made weak. The more I was weak, the more opportunities I missed or failed to notice. The more I failed, the more I depressed.

I remembered how in 2006 I finally recognized my vicious, self-feeding, ever-growing, depressive pattern after a tip-off from God, and decided to repent of my depressive thinking, and then started to listen to God’s word exclusively. It healed my depression.

If I wasn’t so depressed, so self-pitying, so doubtful, and so vocal about my depressing thoughts, I would have been 10 times more successful and happy overall. My career would have took off much earlier and maybe I am already with the best girl by now.

But I knew it was unrealistic to think that way, because the lessons I had learned over the years were so complicated, so hard, so subtle, so mult-layered that I would never had guessed what they were 10 years ago. I would never had recognized the lessons I needed to learn from scratch. It really took time and real life lessons to internalize them.

The main lesson I learned was faith. How would I ever guessed that the institutional churches had never really taught me what faith really was and how it actually worked?

See, I am speaking hopes here. I have ministry to look forward to. I can envision people gather together as a real, biblical church. I have hopes that people are going to change.

In Hell, there are no hopes. The damned is forever hopeless. It gave us all the more reason to cherish the hopes we have on earth, although it is full of hurt, loneliness, and suffering. Don’t be depressed. It lied to you and would tell you to commit suicide, but in Hell there will only be thousand times of suffering and hopelessness we have on earth.

Let’s be joyful, thankful, and hopeful for the gift of life and look forward to a victorious New Year. God Bless!

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Romans 4:17 (king James)

(As it is written, I have made thee a father of many nations,) before him whom he believed, [even] God, who quickeneth the dead, and calleth those things which be not as though they were.

New American Standard Bible Version:
(as it is written, “A FATHER OF MANY NATIONS HAVE I MADE YOU”) in the presence of Him whom he believed, even God, who gives life to the dead and calls into being that which does not exist.

There are times when you have to walk alone. Those moments can be cloudy and uncertain. You can still be sure of one thing, that is, God’s words is always true. Maybe you are not seeing the church you need. Maybe you don’t have any reliable colleague to fight along with. Maybe the godly desires you are yearning are not in sights even though you have spent years waiting. You can still count on what God said.

When your faith reaches a certain level, you know that the colleagues you need are out there. They already existed and are scheduled to arrive if you continue to believe. The church you need is manifesting. The spouse that you desire is warped for you. All the desires that God has made provisions for in His words are yours to claim if you really believe.

Today I took a 3 hour long walk in my neighborhood, alone. After all these times and since the last post, I remained alone. The church that I am building is still tiny. Things didn’t seem to change a lot since my last entry. The Internet marketing business is still in the humble state, making dismal amount of money. However, I knew what God has promised, and I was not going to contradict His words with my thought and words.

My faith was indeed like a mustard seed. It began so little. The results of my faith are still pretty unnoticeable if not carefully scrutinized. Nothing that I have done so far in life turned out to be substantial, and the buddy that I counted on really showed me once again how feeble humans are. I was let down big time.

I decided not to stay down. God’s word began to flow through me. One Bible verse after another was flashing through my head. The one that grasped my attention the most was Romans 4:17. The things I wanted to see were simply not there as I was walking alone this afternoon, but I was rest assured that they were as good as real, because God already had promised them and what He had promised He was also able to perform (Romans 4:21)

I felt that my faith had never been so to the point and biblical. For too long, I had let myself drowned in trouble water and spoke my mind and feeling instead of God’s word. Now I felt so refreshed and peaceful as I was able to use the accurate Bible verses at the exact moments that call for them.

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Did God not care about my success? Satan wants us to think that way.

Tonight I am studying an exam. Every practice question was painful to go through.

I am going to be a math teacher.

Maybe God wants me to understand something here. Maybe He is trying to show me that there is spiritual warfare behind each tiny step toward my calling in life?

It was so painful.

9 years of financial and career failures: unemployment, incomeless, and debt. Why? It’s mystery. Mystery is such a burden. (Ecc 1:13)

I “am” miserable. Misery makes me distracted and addicted to sinful pleasure to medicate myself.

Then God brought me to rememberance of some of my past sin: When I was in the internship program in my Uni year I “cursed” a potential employer because he showed up late. I “cursed” professor of a statistic class because I couldn’t understand what she was saying.

Then I failed the internship program, and later my GPA, especially for the statistic courses, never went higher than 70 in my whole University years. I barely got my honor degree.

I reaped the fruits of my mouth.

Proverbs 18:20

²⁰A man’s belly shall be satisfied with the fruit of his mouth; and with the increase of his lips shall he be filled.

Psalm 34:12-16

¹²What man is he that desireth life, and loveth many days, that he may see good?

¹³Keep thy tongue from evil, and thy lips from speaking guile.

¹⁴Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace, and pursue it.

¹⁵The eyes of the LORD are upon the righteous, and his ears are open unto their cry.

¹⁶The face of the LORD is against them that do evil, to cut off the remembrance of them from the earth.

The pains I was going through tonight caused suicidal thoughts to resurface.

It’s all good. I am repenting of my past sins here. Just some old baggage to deal with.

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Here are some of the demonic strongholds (Lies from demons) I have witnessed in common church setting. I also generalized some discussions I had with certain pastors over the years to sum things up: (I reply in green. If I enclose the green with * *, that means I didn’t really say it out loud. It was in my head. If there is no* but just green, I did say it out loud)

1 Hearing God’s Voice is for special people, or the deceived people.

2 You can’t understand the Bible without going through our approved seminaries, and if you happen to know the Bible very well, you are either Pharisees or you think too much. A lay Christian shouldn’t know his Bible unless he wants to show off.

3 Don’t ask for the gift of Tongue, it’s dangerous.

4 If you sin but you don’t repent, then you are not a Christian to begin with. But you can’t lose your salvation if you are really saved! Pastor, what if I sin and not repent? You can’t!! *So I can sin but I cannot refuse to repent? Why doesn’t God work me the other way around so I can’t sin but can repent?*

5 Go see a psychiatrist if you have any sign of mental problem. Don’t come to me! Thinking too much about bible prophecies is a sign of mental problem. A normal Christian won’t think about anything in the Bible as much as you. They don’t ask these question! You must have a problem.

6 Your parents’ sin, generational curses (What!?), or verbal curse don’t affect you in any way

7 If you believe otherwise on #6, then you are deceived by the Pentecostal.

8 No one ask for help to cast out demons in this church, so there are no demons in our church. *Who are going to ask for help if you will either label us as being deceived by the Pentecostal or send us to the doctor?*

9 If you tell me a Christian is demonized (demons live in him), then he must be weak in faith. But since no one ask for help, no one has demon in this church. *So no one in your church is weak in faith in your church then? All elites, wohoo! But how come I don’t see anyone moving the mountain or healing any disease in your church if everyone is strong in faith?*

10 Re:#4, but pastor! I know so and so, they did this and this but they don’t repent. Pastor: They are not Christians to begin with! Pastor, more than 90% of Christian brother watch porn… and more than half the church sin and not repent. Rationalization and refusal to repent are so common! I don’t know about this. No one told me that.

11. If you belong to a church fellowship group, attend every Sunday service and Sunday school, then you are doing fine. But pastor, like I said in #10, 90% of brothers watch porn or many sin without repentant even though they did the whole nine yards you told them to Pastor: They are not real Christian then. But they believe the Bible cover to cover! It’s just head knowledge!! Head knowledge doesn’t make a person a real Christian!!

12 Re:#11 I did all you have taught me to do, but I still struggle with this, this, and that sins. What’s my problem? My buddies sin too but some of them don’t repent for a long time. Pastor: Doing good works doesn’t mean you guys are real Christians!! All you have are just head knowledge, not genuine experience with God! *I guess I am going to be labeled as a false Christian if I keep asking…*

13: Re: #12 But why do I still struggle with sins after I repent? What if I can’t stop myself and one day fall into a heavier sin? Pastor: A mature person won’t ask that question!

14 The more money you have the more sorrowful you will become. But the Old Testament says God loves to bless us with prosperity! Pastor: Old Testament is in the past. We are in the New Testament era.

15 God doesn’t guarantee your Christian life will be dandy, rich, peaceful, successful… But Pastor, my life sucks too much, walking around poor and fail everything, *something must be wrong with our teaching* The Bible never guarantee your life will be happy and easy!!! But Pastor, the Old Testament says… (back to #14)

16 If it’s God will, brother Ken’s will recover from cancer. But brother, what’s God’s will? Typical Christian: Who am I to say?

17 If you don’t devote your entire days to do job search *randomly like God has nothing to say about your career* just like everyone does, but take time to pray and seek God’s will for your job and wait for Him to speak before you take any job, then you are lazy. God doesn’t talk to His people which job to take, it’s too small for Him. *Go back to #1*

18 Stop talking about the Bible so much and asking pointy questions about it, don’t talk to people about these things, otherwise you can’t bring them to the church because they would think you are weird. Talk about “casual” things instead.

19 Christians are supposed to be poor and lowly. Get a 9-5 jobs so you can fit in with our church. 90% of our church members are 9-5 employees, who are you to think that you are called to start a business? Don’t be too ambitious and conceited! *Update: Now that I think of #11, maybe 90% of our church members aren’t even Christians!* Don’t forget that “I told you so”, your so called entrepreneurial projects will fail in two years and you will get stuck at where you are now. See what happen after 2 years at #34

20 Don’t mention demons. Why ALWAYS [loud] talk about demons? You are worshiping Satan if you talk about him SO MUCH! Just talk about Jesus!

21 This is the New testament era. The Old Testament was past and it was so difficult to read. Let’s just stick with the New Testament in our Bible Study.

22 The Old Testament was in the past. The Four Gospels were before Jesus’ crucifixion, and Revelation is about the future, so let just focus on the New Testament books that remain.

23 Don’t talk about the Bible too much in the church, it’s too heavy for lay Christians. Let’s balance our prayers and Bible studies with fun activities.

24. Re#5 But pastor, I thought we are supposed to pray and read the Bible to find out the cure from God if we have any problem with our mental health? It has nothing to do with prayers. Don’t talk to your therapists about the Bible.

25. Idols, statues, charm, and occult objects of any kind cannot affect you in any way. We are Christians. We can put any object in our home, even if it has spell on it. Go watch any horror movies if you want, The Exorcist, Harry Potter, whatever. They have no ill effect on us! *But Pastor! Some people saw real demons and real occult magic in these things? If they have no ill effect, why would Satan put these real evil messages in them? Stop talking about Satan! You are worshiping demons if you talk about him too much!! *Back to #20

26. Re:#4 But pastor, like I told you in #15 I walk around poor, I just don’t have money to see doctor, therapists, and psychiatrists. Pastor: …

27. Regular fasting is legalistic. It hurts your body. Regular fasting is just good work, it might not help you spiritually. So what helps? I did everything you told me but still struggle with sins. Pastor: … [Repeat what he says in #11, 12, 28, 29]

28. Don’t talk to me about the problem of porn or MASTURBATION! [I used a tiny voice when I say "masturbation", but he increased his volume when he mentioned the word "masturbation" even though some Christians sisters are chatting next door "SO YOU MASTURBATE?" thanks Pastor!] Don’t you know it’s wrong to walk around and ask EVERYONE question like this? *But Pastor, when did I ask EVERYONE this question? I was asking you*

29. You sin because you choose to sin. Addiction is an illusion, an excuse!

30. Re: #3 If people in this church have gift of tongue, fine, but don’t use it in church meeting because it would disrupt others. No one know what they talk about if they speak in tongue. *Can’t we design some programs and meeting that allow people to pray in tongue? Why should we restrain the gift of God to accommodate the tradition of men? Why don’t we seek gift of Interpretation so we can interpret the tongue? Won’t they disrupt others if they pray in tongue at home* [Too bad I didn't think of this rebuttal at the time]

31 People won’t read your Christian blog, because you are not a certified, approved-seminary trained pastor! See #2 But pastor, I got 2000 visitor per month and it’s only beginning. People don’t care who you are as long as what you write is good. Pastor: …

32 Stop writing journal about your walk with God, it only make you think even more (See #5), go see a doctor instead and don’t forget #24. You have already mentioned prophecy, salvation, church living, demons, and the whole nine yards in such a short meeting with me. All you talk about is pointy question. People would think you are weird.  See? you have a problem. (Go to #18)

33 Re:#26 You walk around poor because you lack focus. You think about the whole nine yards in #32 too much that you fail to land and keep a good job!!!

34 Pastor! 2 years ago you said that all my entrepreneurial projects will fail. They failed! What do you think? *Now I had failed to make 1 cent from most of them. Only one project made me $3.17 and I can’t even cash it in. Even my younger brother did much better than that, I guess it’s because he doesn’t have a pastor who cursed him with Pastoral authority. He doesn’t go to church. Curses are real! (See #6)*  Pastor: [sheepishly, with a "gentle, kind, typical pastor look" expression on his face] Give it another try! Me: …

35. Re# 27 Since I can’t find the answers from you in #11, 12, 27, 28, 29, I went out and read such and such books. I sensed that the Holy Spirit was leading me to read those books. What do you think about their teaching? You are doing too much that you confused yourself… [repeating #32]…and remember head knowledge doesn’t help you! [repeating #12]… but if you do the list on #11 within our church you will be fine… those books you read were written by famous preachers… On the judgment day you will see many nameless pastors, evangelists, and ministers who will get their rewards in heaven.. *So that means you are one of those nameless pastors then?… hm… I also read of many testimonies by Christians whom God had led to heaven and hell, and they reported that many pastors ended up in Hell even though they believed in #4 …hm… *

36. So few people come to our prayer meeting! *you forbid praying in tongue (#30), you refuse to pray for healing (#16), you discourage us from praying for prosperity (#14), you discourage us from battling demons (#20), you don’t let us confess our sins (#28), we don’t even know whether fasting or prayers is useful (#27), you say prayers are useless for psychological problems (#24), you don’t let us keep watch and prepare for the end time (#5), you tell us not to seek God’s face (#37), and you told us not to seek God’s will on something that occupies us 8 hours per day 40 hours a week such as career (#17), then why should I go to your prayer meeting? *

37. Don’t seek God’s face. If He shows up, you will either drop dead on the spot or you will be bossed around by Him so much you would rather die.

Conclusion:

I am lucky that I am in an evangelical church. If I have been in the medieval Catholic Church, they would have labelled me as heretic and burn me on the stake for criticizing the church.

Demonic lies are everywhere.

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I really came out of the closet – about the fact that I don’t believe in the “one saved, always saved” and the “Rapture is for every believer” theories, and the fact that I think most of what our church teaches and doesn’t teaches have so far failed to equip me to face most of my challenges in life.

Should you tell these things to your brothers and sisters? While I don’t usually tell the church folks what I really believe to avoid a fight, I think at the end of the day you should let your brothers and sisters know.

The aforementioned theories really did major disservices to sincere Christians, insincere Christians, and anything in between, because the theories undermine the importance to watch out for what is to come – the future judgments: the Tribulation and even Hell.

I also shared with them a tiny bit about the trials I had been through. It was quite hard to have to explain to someone who has always been doing well in a typical job why you have been incomeless and unemployed for 3 years.

Generational curses and verbal curses were the major factors that break my destiny.

Before I went for lunch with them, I’d spend an hour praying to God. It was saddening to pray about my past and ask God what I should say if the couple ask about my “job hunt”. I was wandering in the desert financially.

How do I explain this to them?

I had lost so much honor and opportunities in the past already. And here I have to explain to other about it and make myself go through the entire memory bank again!

So I started off by telling them how I have this conviction to seek God’s perfect will for my life in everything, including job search, and that God hasn’t really instructed me where I should go in terms of job finding. (Proverbs 3:5-6) (And I do have sent out applications, even to Wal Mart, but all doors closed. I was once hired for a week and was said to be over qualified. The owner and I had a lot in common, even went to the same church, but it didn’t last over a week)

Basically, when I worked, I was always on the verge of getting fired. If there were options, I often ended up choosing the slow and crooked path. When there were opportunities, they often slipped through my hands in the last second. Blessing evaded me most of the time.

I doubled and tripled my will. I prayed. I read. I sought help. Every door closed. I joined a Network Marketing company to keep myself positive, since NM usually have those pumping-you-up prep talks and positive thinking rules, but even that turned sour. Positive thinking without Truth and God is futile.

I couldn’t explain my suicidal thoughts. I couldn’t stop my depression. I had short attention span. Every dream I cherished ended up broken. Almost every nightmare that I dreaded get fulfilled. (But I think God really kept some of the worst ones from happening, such as I didn’t really commit suicide, and I didn’t go blind, even though my eyesight haven’t got healed yet)

As a result, I also had to spend a lot of time to come to term with my memory and try to know the whys. But the down side of that was, the more time you had, the more your brain will find things to occupy those time. The more time you give your brain, the more it thinks.

Okay, back to the topic.

God told me the major reason of all these was because of curses that still operated in my life, so I was able to break them after learning these things. Demons feed upon curses and they really go after anyone who is under curse(s).

Also, there was my own problem – my own lack of faith? I thought I had faith, but I had failed to speak the word of faith often! As Christians, we should speak the word of God with faith, not verbalize the negatives of the situation nor complains. Over the year, my negative confessions often get fulfilled. Speaking of self-fulfilling prophecies. See my view on What Is Faith

After I learned about these things, I was really shocked, but now I have to explain them to my Baptist fellows. Baptist Churches don’t teach these things.

I have been told to keep quiet about my new findings because they can cause such a big impact to others. Well, millions of churchgoers could be going to hell without knowing it. We have millions of people in the churches today, but not all of them are getting saved in the end. I know it for a fact. They must at least be given a fair treatment by telling them the truth.

False security will only drastically increase one’s chance of falling into sins and refusing to repent:

Hebrews 3:12-13

12See to it, brothers, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God. ¹³But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin’s deceitfulness.

Today was such a battle for me, emotionally, spiritually, and mentally. And people kept asking me about my “job hunt”…

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However, today we see humanists, socialists, atheists, feminists, progressive, and their thugs buddies giving glory to their gods: governments, paramilitary interest groups, intelligence, ideologies, pseudo-science, and other idols, instead of giving glory to God that He deserves.

This is a grave problem.

In the first 16-20 years since I have become a Christian I didn’t understand why glory is so preeminent to God. If humans act that way, we would think they are ego-maniac.

But we have so many problems in the world today because people give glory to the false gods, which won’t solve problems but increase them.

One example is communism. Today there are still people crying for communism and socialism, even though millions of lives have died under communism.

Psalm 66

¹ Shout with joy to God, all the earth!² Sing the glory of his name;
make his praise glorious!

³ Say to God, “How awesome are your deeds!
So great is your power
that your enemies cringe before you.

⁴ All the earth bows down to you;
they sing praise to you,
they sing praise to your name.”

People who give glory to the false gods are exactly the kind of people who stood against blessings such as freedom, prosperity, peace, and human dignity. Then they turn around and accuse God and His people of the exact crime that people of their kind have committed in the past, such as enslaving the black people, slaughtering the Jews, and witch-hunt (many Biblical Christians were slaughtered by the Catholic Church, but today godless people accuse biblical Christians for crimes such as witch hunt and crusades).

Matthew 23:29-32

²⁹“Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You build tombs for the prophets and decorate the graves of the righteous. ³⁰And you say, ‘If we had lived in the days of our forefathers, we would not have taken part with them in shedding the blood of the prophets.’ ³¹So you testify against yourselves that you are the descendants of those who murdered the prophets. ³²Fill up, then, the measure of the sin of your forefathers!

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John 10:10, The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.

I just recently learned how much the thief was actually able to steal and rob from us: family, joy, opportunities, accomplishment, relationship, honor, health, peace, spiritual blessings (such as visions, calling, gifts), time (in the unit of year), purity, and all that.

For example, sexual abuse of children is ultimately the enemy stealing innocence from children. It disables many children even after they grow up.

What should we do? God will do His part, but if we do our part, He will be able to do even more. God needs our co-labor to perform to His fullest.

One of the things that He needs us to do is to exercise our legal rights. As His children, we are like a person who inherited billions of dollars, but doesn’t really understand the authority and legal process that enable her to enjoy the money.

If an evil lawyer try to swindle our inheritance away from that child, the child needs to defend herself with her legal right.

Here is the legal right for Christians:

Joel 2:25 I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten—

The Lord promised that He will repay you for all the years that has been wasted due to sabotage and robbery of the enemy, or your own mistakes, or both.

Proverbs 6: 30-31 People do not despise a thief. If he steals to satisfy himself when he is starving. Yet when he is found, he must restore sevenfold;

The Law requires that if a thief is caught, he needs to repay sevenfold.

If we ask God, He will let us know what exactly Satan has stolen from us, and we can appeal to God. We will receive restoration from the Lord Himself, and sevenfold from the enemy.

It sure hurts the kingdom of Satan.

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I used to walk in the Spirit, but there were other areas where I didn’t surrender, without me consciously realizing it. For example, school. While I immersed myself totally in the area of serving God in my ministry, I didn’t fully listen to the voice of God’s counsel when it came to study in school.

Whenever I tried to do school work depressive thoughts and regretful thoughts just came and attacked me. I was stressful and didn’t feel satisfied no matter how hard I tried. There was no sense of joy and peace.

Things of the past dragged me down.

I wondered why it wasn’t that way in other areas, such as my ministry life. It all seemed pretty easy to listen to God’s guidance and walk step by step with Him in ministry.

Struggles With Some Problems For Too Long Make It Hard Not To Seek Outside Of God

Because of this sense of handicap and inadequacy I had in school and career for a prolonged time, I began to seek outside of God. ( not really outside of God because I’d walked with Him daily, I just failed to realize the solution was God Himself, who already walked with me daily. The Solution had been there all along.)

After a while, I came back to God and realized that I didn’t need to seek else where. God is the same for every part of my life. I can rely on Him and trust Him.

If i experienced success and revival by listening to God’s voice and 100% obedience, I can experience the same things in other areas as well, even for areas where I had traumatic experience of failures.

2 Corinthians 1:3-4

³Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, ⁴who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.

If we simply listen to God’s voice instead of the enemies’, depression and confusion will fade. He is the expert comforter, no man speak like Him.

The next time you feel inadequate and insecure, just draw near to Him, listen to His loving voice, and you will find strength and productivity with whatever you got stuck at previously.

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